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Ode to "you're going to be arrested"

“I don’t care if people hate my guts; I assume most of them do.
The important question is whether they are in a position to do
anything about it.”

-William S. Burroughs


"I pray that these things never end..."



My God, My God,
I pray that these things never end,
The sand and the sea,
The rustle of the waters,
Lightning of the Heavens,
The prayer of Man.

אלי, אלי, שלא יגמר לעולם
החול והים
רישרוש של המים
ברק השמים
תפילת האדם

Eli, Eli
("My God, My God").
~ Hannah Szenes ~

"Hate cannot drive out hate"


"Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that.
Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.
Hate multiplies hate, violence multiplies violence,
and toughness multiplies toughness in a descending spiral of destruction.
The chain reaction of evil--hate begetting hate, wars producing more wars--must be broken,
or we shall be plunged into the dark abyss of annihilation."

~ Martin Luther King, Jr.,
Strength To Love, 1963.

Giant catch-up!

Bright and early this morning, I had not one, but two job interviews. I went ahead and pursed the job openings a few weeks ago, when MF told me they were probably not going to hold the job for me because of my surgery. Then, I was told they might, and then I was told, no, again. Obviously, because I was due to start on September 29th. That whole thing was such a sad, unprofessional mess, I decided to let it go, and move on. I went back to the 'One Stop' to get some contacts, and wound up with 2 interviews. In the same place (Kenmore Mercy Hospital). And, I think things went well. But you know how most interviews go... you think it went well, then, comes the wait. In the meantime I am going to try to get an interview over at Byrant and Stratten, because they are looking for social science professors and teachers, and I fit all the requirements. All of them - and more. My brother teaches there and loves it. He's the one who tipped me off about the openings, too. So making calls today, trying to see who's ass I need to kiss ;)

Still no word on Bon Vivant. I'm not sure what's going to happen. I wish I could say. I'm not posting anything about it on Tribe though. Or anywhere for that matter. Not till I know, for sure. And sadly, I may not know till as long as two weeks from now, RIGHT BEFORE the Haflaween. Very frustrating. On top of that, Janna wasn't able to come to the studio yesterday because her brother, who is very sick and in the hospital, had some kind of major issue, and she was really upset. I feel bad. Seems so many people have so much going on right now. I've been lighting a lot of candles, and doing a lot of chanting.

This week I head back to Roswell for some final pre-surgery testing, and next week is my surgery. I'm going to change the message on my cell phone, to remind people I'll be on voice rest. Which is going to suck cause as far as any Haflaween plans go, I am going to have to really keep it quiet. If people call me about it, I'm not sure how I'm going to handle it. I'll worry about that when I get to that point. I could probably talk long enough to give them Diana's number and have them call her? Yeah?

Tonight, I'm going to meet up with a girl I used to know in highschool. She went to East, and I went to South, but we went to Mill together, and kept hanging out after we got moved to different high schools. Haven't seen her in about 15 years... and she recently found me on MySpace, so, we're going to have some coffee tonight. I'm excited about it. She was a very cool chica back when I knew her.

Oh, and totally randomly... Chris Rock's new show 'Kill the Messenger' was on last night on HBO. It was so funny, I cried. But ya know, I thought it was kinda shitty that he called Rachel Ray a lard ass. I'm not in her fan club or anything, but, she is NOT a lard ass!!! She's an average size!! I'm guessing about a 9 or maybe 10. I tell ya, that kind of crap really bugs me because it reminds me, over and over, that no matter how much weight I lose, I will NEVER EVER be considered "thin". Not unless I become anorexic and can try out for America's Next Top Model.

But whatever... it's ok. I may not be "thin", but I will be healthy and happier. I dropped 5 pounds the last 2 weeks, and 1 more this weekend. Slow and steady wins the race. I'm about 10 more away from my size 12's'. I'm right on that "they almost fit!!" annoying cusp.

And eh, that's about it. The show went well yesterday, except I guess Nadia's last name is pronounced Ib-rah-him, not Ib-ri-him. Oops? People call us You-Frack-sha, all the time. What can ya do, ya know? We did get a really, really sweet email from an ATS dancer in Australia, and that was cool. She said she loved the show. That made my whole night. I had fun. It was fun to work with Diana like that, and I loved having the chance to hear Alex read and rap. I just wish I had mentioned we were performing at the Burshfield-Penney next month! Doh!

So long, farewell, but not forever...


... the Buffalo Infringement Festival is now, officially over. It was a great time (all around) - and I went ahead and made this entry public so that the great people I met during the last month, who wanted to add me here, could see this entry, and drop me a message.

Cheers, everyone!

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